When you are someone who has many things you love to do, sometimes this question raises:
What to focus on?
I have this luxury problem often.
With 4 different works - massage, (natural) building, guiding trekkings, arts and music - and many more side projects I do and have in mind, it can be a seemingly puzzle how to fit it in the time. Also I remain open to the possibility of changing direction any time, and that other things that I favour even more, could come onto my path.
For me life has become much more about the 'art-to-flow-in-the-moment' than about any activity that I would do 'externally'.
Waaaay more important than manifestations I find 'social art', communication, connecting activities, inspiring people and myself to experience the well of life in many forms.
My favorite is situations and spaces where fulfilment and satisfaction can erupt.
My main self-study object over the last years has been to observe the key elements that bring this satisfaction about. I have spent more time with this than with any visible activity, plus I explore it while doing every activity.
What works? / What doesn't work?
Boiled down: it is about knowing the laws of the universe & the laws of love, and from those laws being able to create deliberately. Not that I know it all, but at least I am pretty passionate about correcting some mistakes I made before.
One very important factor is the perspectives that are carried, how do you actually look at your reality?
It seems to be pretty standard to believe that our human choices should be based on what is 'out there' in the world that we 'know we can choose from'.
Who believes that 'life is good to you' and actually wants to give you everything you long for?
How (un)common is that?
I played a lot with going about my days with the trust that 'life' is very eager to back up my own, brand new choices, unrelated to what I previously considered possible.
With creating I not only mean the actual manifestations, but also that which comes before them. That which I put out: a state of feeling, imagining, dancing within. Regardless whether the manifestation happens or not...
Although I do so many different activities and have so many manifestations in the pipeline, I would not mind just doing just that the whole day:
Outwardly nothing. Inwardly playing with countless things I can imagine.
imagine things I have never thought about before.
I do this often. As much as I can.
I daydream like this:
Given that I have limitless time, and I could do things I love, one by one, until a point of satisfaction...
What would my life look like?
Which courses would I take?
I would study osteopathy, and then would love to share with other people what I have come to understand so far about the body + energy, or simply explore by experiencing.
I would take a course in public speaking and stand up comedy and the start doing it, just because it is out of my comfort zone, to expand my horizon.
I would only focus on sculpting for a whole year, supervised by another sculpturer who can help me with technical stuff.
I would start a business with some of my best friends, something that combines all our talents and our intentions.
Which places would I go?
At first, I would simply stay in Crete, because I am already extremely satisfied with what is present and continuously opening up here and so much more to discover!!!
Then the rest of Greece I'd like to see. Perhaps guide walking hikes on other islands (which is very likely to happen anyway, since I was already asked).
I'd visit a rainforest, because I have never been..
Bhutan, to find out if it is truly as beautiful as I imagine...
What company would I work in or what company would I start?
I would wanna visit and learn from different companies and projects of my choice.
A co-operative of sustainable building & different skilled co-workers and flood the earth with a wave of quality and beauty. Teaching others, especially young kids this.
I'd perhaps help start up a school much in the ways of Tekos in Russia. (google up the documentary, really worthwhile watching!)
My favourite thing to imagine: what I could give others & what I would like to surprise them with?
Oh countless things I would wanna give to others, people I know or randomly to strangers... what joy and satisfaction that would give!!!!!!!
How would I feel if I live in...
A dome house, like the one's I have visited in Nevada, that also had an amazing conservatory with plants and tub inside.
I would love to co-live with my dearest friends in an interesting giant villa, that also would have spaces for others to stay!
I would love to share houses with friends, on each continent one, and we could sometimes (ex)change locations and projects!
The next visioning-topic:
I imagine that I have 3 or 10 people around me that I match with profoundly, on many levels. To share a richness of contact, mutual divinely inspired feedback, and precious moments of flow.
One thing I bump into with this visioning game is that a part of me is so used to think what I used to think before.
Allthough it is fun, it is still much based on "what is out there".
From time to time I ask myself these 3 questions, of which the last one most often:
- How much of the choices are made upon choices that other people made before me?
- How much of my choices are based upon what choice I made before?
- How much of my choices are based upon actually believing that I can create anything - I mean anything! - and will get the support from my own creatorship / life the same day, next week, next year, essentially when I am READY!?...
The last one is becoming more and more within reach. It is simply undoubtedly knowing:
it is gonna work out!
One recent scenario of my own life:
When I was thinking how to give shape to a visit to the Netherlands, at first I didn't know how to organise this. After my brother passed away, I hardly had had time with my family. It is quite different to get used to such transformation here in Crete, than in Holland - where the memories are.
How long to go there? 3 weeks? That would be long time away from my work and projects here on Crete, and no income all that time. In a short period of time I had 2 tickets to Holland to pay for.
I felt not really eager to spend time in the Netherlands, although eager to spend time with my beloved family and friends.
I asked myself: how could it look, if it was the way I really would like?
The first thing that came to mind was that it would be so much more fun if I could do some work I love. Like giving massages. That idea made it suddenly seem possible AND a fun way to experience Holland anew while sharing one of my most favourite skills. Since I still had my futon stored in my parents attic, also easy enough to organise! And in my intention a win win for everyone involved.
Based on nothing other than a positive expectation I took the leap, and indeed it went as I had visioned and better.
I even met a new amazing friend, with whom I wound up celebrating Christmas day and who shared his home with me - the under-neighbour of my sister. Thank you Roel, love you!
Many valuable meetings occurred, and overall it felt very expansive time. Being in Holland has become a new experience.
I trust now that manifestations come effortless when the time is ripe.
One of the most distinct indicators for a ripe time: the feeling that it is already there, even when it hasn't manifested yet.
Here comes the most simple formula that I use every day.
This works more practical for me than any effort I have ever made during my whole life - with which I also achieved things, but ultimately it never brought me real joy!
Given that every day is a complete reset
and a new day in paradise...
1. INTENTION --> I prepare my own state of being
I vision until I can feel how I like to feel, in a given day. I expect really good things to happen to me and others.
I ask myself what I really really feel like that day.
Usually I do this after having completely quieted my thoughts.
I notice that I can only do it when I am in a state of clarity and physically relaxed.
When I don't feel good, I learned not to even try. It never works.
2 RECEPTIVE MODE -->Things coming to me, instead of me reaching for things
I truly believe I am constantly showered in the fulfillment of all the longings I have. That the bigger part of me IS already the fulfillment of and the answer to everything that really matters to me.
All I need to do is to let it in.
It helps when you actually believe this, otherwise it won't work.
For me it is not a belief, it is a knowing.
I know I am a complete being, and that I just sometimes use circumstances and reflections to let in the whole of me, or different aspects of what I am. That makes me feel good. Or I use a circumstance to tune out of that - which doesn't make me feel good.
I try to remember this as many times in the day as I can and then feel into the moments and what possibly I can let in to enjoy myself and the moment to the fullest. I ready myself so to say, for when it comes. Subsequently I already start to feel it, even if there is no direct manifestation.
3 PAYING ATTENTION versus 'picking the fruit' --> I find one or more manifestations that day of the things I set forth as an intention
While flowing into the day I look for that feeling that I prepared. And find out how life is answering in subtle or more obvious ways.
This way it starts to become a game between me and me, me and life.
When I find a manifestation, an example of great timing, flow, or things coming my way that I feel grateful for, I acknowledge: I created that.
When things come into my experience that I didn't like, I also acknowledge: I created that. I say to myself: 'apparently it was active in my field. I don't prefer it, and then clearly I state again what I prefer and the part I want to have in it.
I don't take it as a reflection on myself or what I will be able to create.
If I find manifestations I can feel such appreciation for what came my way (even if it was a beginning). Even if it was appreciation for everything that was already there, or what has lead me to where I am now, or just generally the fact that there is so much more wellbeing than not.
Manifestations don't have to come from other people. This is a common trap, something people feel they need, or are used to look for. 'Needy needs' that need to be answered is something different than two people meeting up at the right time and the right place, and source energy flowing through both of them. Where giving is receiving and receiving is giving; fulfilment that ripples far beyond that moment.
A manifestation can also be coming from yourself and having lots of fun with yourself. In nature. On your laptop. Or with strangers.
One other powerful fruit-to-pick: to observe the successes of other people! this is also a form of manifestation.
Since I consider people "other selfs" in my reality, the more people have successes, the better.
What I discovered:
The more I look for signs and manifestations, the more it shows. And the more I myself was a co-operative component!
I now trust that I CAN create what I like. In stead of creating things I don't like, as happened a lot not too long ago. I attributed that to my circumstance or surroundings. Which of course put my power outside of myself.
Even when someone fills their life with resistance to that very thing they long for.. there is hope. Especially then: because when you let go of the obstacles that you create for yourself, you get launched even faster towards the truth.
The only pain that arises, is everything that is not true, that has to fall by the wayside.
Bye bye swimming upstream!
Swimming upstream... A habit that I, and many others with me, took on, in a world, where the ones-who-were-here-longer 'taught' us what brought them 'so far'; a world where effort was paramount.
While all along the well is right at your feet: You! Your very creatorship! That Bigger Part of you that summons life to bring you all the co-operative components without you having to force them into place.
All you need to do is start trusting that part of yourself. Those who don't, feel often traumatized, and a victim of life. While the solution is just one step away. Namely the step into believing that you can create what you desire.
It is impossible to not create what you are, eventually.